Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Exhausted....

I don't know how I get myself into these messes. So this week is EXTRA ridiculous and it's only Tuesday! I don't know what possessed me to try and teach Calculus to the summer bridge kids, but that's exactly what I'm doing. I've only gotten through one day and I'm exhausted already. Plus I'm an RA. I've been with these kids almost all day for 2 days and I'm already ridiculously tired. But they're really cool so I guess I'll get over it. Is it Friday yet?

Not to mention I'm still taking my summer school class and I was fighting sleep SO much today in class. It's not even that it was boring or I didn't understand what was going on. I was really interested in class, I just couldn't stay awake. I hope the professor didn't see me dozing too much.

Here's what my schedule for today looked like:

6am Wake up
7am Breakfast
8-10am Calculus Group 1
10am-12pm Calculus Group 2
2-3:30pm Materials Science Class
4-5pm Work
5-6pm Dinner
6-8pm Summer Bridge Study Session
8pm-Whenever Prepare tomorrow's Calculus Lecture

I'm tired just thinking about all the crap I did today. Hopefully it will get easier. I hope I'm actually teaching these kids something. I feel like a big bumbling idiot in front of them and after 4 hours of straight lecturing I was exhausted.

HELP ME....HELP ME PLEASE!!!

Friday, June 03, 2005

Cleaning House

So last weekend I decided that I should clean my apartment because it looked pretty bad. I spent most of Saturday and half of Sunday cleaning. So what's the problem? Well it doesn't really look that much better.

See everytime I start cleaning up I realize that my apartment is a lot worse than it looks. I start cleaning closets, throwing away stuff I don't want and organizing spaces that you really can't see. The end result? I have 3 pretty clean closests, I've given away 5 bags of clothes that I would have never worn again to the goodwill, and my apartment still looks like hot garbage.

OK ok it does look a little better than it did before, but I've come discover my main problem....paper. There are stacks of papers everywhere that I honestly need to file, sort through and keep mostly. And I never have the strength to do that. I've vacuumed, dusted, washed clothes, cooked food and cleaned toilets but I can't bring myself to go through all these papers. It's probably because most of it is school work from the past semester and I probably don't want to relive the horror that was the Spring 2005 semester. It was so promising...and then April came. But I digress....

I wish I could pay someone to come do this for me...damn I'm lazy. Maybe I'll get enough strength this weekend to do this. I think part of my problem is that I wait until night time to do this stuff and well I never have enough energy for that. Maybe I should try actually being productive during the daytime. What a novel idea!